This happened to me on a friends ATV 4 Wheeler I was riding 2 days after my freshman year at college, I was 19yrs old.






Hello,

       I knew I was going to write this opening paragraph the next day and I knew this opening paragraph was so important. So, I asked the Lord that night to talk to me however He wanted, possibly in a dream, about what to say. I never do this but I thought I would try it because I know He talked to so many in the bible through dreams. Well, this was a dream I didn’t expect. Since I asked Him to talk to me in a dream that night and since I had the craziest, wildest, most bizarre dream I think I have ever had, I'm sure He allowed me to dream this and wanted me to talk about this dream in the opening paragraph. I remembered every single thing that happened, it was so real, like it was actually happening! I’ve never had a dream that was so real like this one. I woke up once during the night and could not believe I was having this dream but the craziest thing was when I went back to sleep, it took off right in the same place where it had stopped and kept going and I was like still in the same dream! And usually you forget most dreams but when I woke up the next morning I remembered every single thing, 'Crystal!'


I know it was from God because after I got done reading the bible that night I remember asking the Lord in my prayer to give me something to put in the opening paragraph because I didn’t know how to start my testimony. I've been trying to figure out why He allowed me to have this dream, one thing for sure I remember so clearly is that sin seems so good at the beginning but in the end, its miserable. One side can be so exhilarating, exciting, pleasurable because the devil can give you anything and everything this world has to offer but only for a short time! I also remember in the dream, at one point, I felt so hollow, miserable, so worthless, so empty, so hopeless, it was the most depressing feeling I've ever felt, going from one end of the spectrum to the other, it was devastating, traumatic, horrible and it was so difficult to get it out of my mind after I woke up! I believe He was trying to tell me that the devil has so many trapped & chained actually living this life right now. Jesus wants you to know that He can BREAK those chains and set you free and you can live a FREE life never being trapped or chained again! If you happen to be caught in this cycle right now, I feel for you, if it was how my dream was but I KNOW God Almighty wants to be your Father and set you Free. The hardest part is taking that step of Faith and Believing without being able to see Him or touch Him. That's what Faith is all about but after you take that step of Faith, you will feel the Holy Spirit's presence and you will KNOW He is who He says He is! I know when I accepted Him and asked Him to be my Father and forgive me of my sins, while lying on the hospital bed shortly after I came out of the 11 day coma. The feeling He gave me, His Holy Spirit entering me, was completely, literally out of this world, words cannot describe!



----Someone called me at work the other day with a different kind of question. They did not know me but got my phone # off of the billboard that's on the highway. This person was hurting with no one to talk to. If you'd like to read about it, it's about halfway down the page under the topic, 'The Lord has been talking to me about this lately'----




A VERY INTERESTING HEBREW WORD the Lord showed me at a Christian conference recently.
Click HERE to read about it.

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A Real Miracle


...... I was 19, shortly after getting home from college my freshman year. I was at my cousins house messing around and a friend happen to be out in the yard riding his ATV 4 wheeler. Well, I always like to ride motor cycles pull wheelies, do crazy stuff but had never ridden an ATV 4 wheeler, so I ask him if I could ride the ATV and he said sure. After getting on it riding around in my cousins yard for a few minutes getting my confidence built up, I wanted to try and pull a wheelie and see how far I could ride it(yea I know but hey, I was 19). I seen a little mound in the yard so I thought I would hit it, pull back on the handle bar and see what it would do. Well, if I only would have new that would have been my last day/minute/second here on earth for all of eternity! When I pulled back on the handle, I didn't pull back hard enough and it landed on the front 2 wheels and it already had a forward momentum therefore kept going forward upside down landing right on top of me. It weighed around 600lbs landing right on top of me and I wasn't wearing a helmet. After it landed on me, it bounced 1 more time and landed back on its wheels, that's how much momentum it had going forwarded using me as the trampoline.


My cousin seen it happen and ran down to the spot in his yard I was at. I was lying on my back not moving. He looked into my eyes and they had rolled back, all he could see was the white of my eyes and he knew it wasn't good. He ran up to the house to get his parents and just so happened(Lords will) there was the dad of my friend there that had been in the military and knew about this kind of stuff and he ran down and kept me from swallowing my tongue. I started spitting up blood so they new the 4 wheeler had crushed things inside of me, not to mention my head, that had been landed on. Luckily the doctor at the bottom of their driveway just happen to be home also (Lords will again) and he came right up and kept me alive until the ambulance got there. I died twice going to the hospital, well, my heart ASYSTOLE(aka FLATLINED) and they had to put those electrical blaster things on my chest and shock me to get my heart to start beating again, which without the shocker things I was a goner.


After arriving at the hospital emergency room, they got me out of the ambulance and inside and did test on me to see where I was at. At the hospital, my family was informed that there was only a slim possibility that I would even live and if I did live I was for sure to be brain dead due to my extensive brain injury. They've gone through these kinds of accidents before so they new the usual outcome of the patients and were just trying to be real with my parents. It put me in a coma for 11 days, they had me on life support systems giving me oxygen, food, etc.....tubes all in my body. They weren't for sure if I’d ever even come out of the coma. My body got down to like 115lbs and I was 5'10" there was nothing left of me, just skin and bones.


The Lord has blessed me with a God fearing family that are prayer warriors. I had so many people praying for me, including the Gideon prayer chain my dad started, which reached out to people all over the US & possibly the world. I thank God for this because I know that these prayers were heard and with the Lords mercy, saved my life. God not only listened but He mercifully answered those prayers! I am living proof that He exists. I should have died that day going to the hospital, well I did FLATLINE twice but God had other plans for me, thank the Lord! I did not know Him before that accident. I was a good guy, had good parents who loved me so much and brought me up in the Lord. They taught me right from wrong which I am so thankful for, them being those kinds of parents!!! What is so hard to grasp or envision is, I did not know Him as my personal Lord & Savior and was on my way to hell, trapped forever in a torment uncomprehendable! I did not deserve or was not worthy of it but the Lord gave me another chance!!! Thank you Father!!!


I knew of Him very well. I knew all the bible stories and learned the books of the bible. I went to church every Sunday and Wednesday but still did not know Him as my personal Lord and Savior! He convicted me time and time again but I always kept putting Him off thinking I had time but at that moment my time was over and all that was left would have been Judgement Day! If I would have died, the only other words I would have ever heard would have been, "Depart from me into ever lasting fire, Forever!" When I think about that, I cannot even describe the feelings because I did not know Him and I would have been sent/trapped in Hell for Eternity and it would have been my own fault. I new what He did for me on that Cross 2000yrs ago.... I thought I had plenty of time! I had so many opportunities but death, no way, that's for old people, I had plenty of time. Little did I know, that was my last day for all Eternity if He would not had given me another chance! Thank you Father! I'm just trying to so empress on you, NO ONE KNOWS THEIR LAST DAY! Without Him as your Personal Father/Savior just gives the devil another chance another day....! You've probably made some bad choices in life, I know I have. Maybe chose the wrong friends, the wrong career, even the wrong spouse. You look back over your life and say, "If only . . . . if only there could be some way I could make up for those bad choices." You can. One good choice for eternity offsets a thousand bad ones on earth. The choice is yours!


I was only 19, healthy as could be, I didn't think I had to worry about that yet. Now I see the devils #1 line, 'You've got Plenty of Time' trying his best to take who ever he can to hell with him! He was trying his best to keep me from Heaven and to keep me from finding out how AWESOME it is to have Jesus as my Father, my Savior, forgiving me for all my sins. Not only my past sins but the sins in the FUTURE, He can already see (He can see the future perfectly, He created time). He knows exactly what's out there but He still loves me and is still willing to give me Eternal life and a home in Heaven. He even knows exactly where & when I will fail / sin every time from now until I go and be with Him in Heaven someday and He still loves me, unthinkable to understand how He could do that! His love for us is more than words can describe! Thank you Father!


One Very Awkward incident that happened in the emergency room after I came out of my coma


One I'll probably never forget! After coming out of my coma, still in the emergency room, still with tubes in my arms and chest, partially paralysed, right side because it was a left front lobel brain injury which affects the opposite side. Well, I knew my friends and cousins were on there way to see me so I came up with this big idea that I had not tried yet. To sit up in my bed with my legs hanging over the side. I thought that would look so cool, trying to act like everything was OK & all. I could not even lift my left arm much above my waste because I lost all my muscle and had NO strength left. My right arm was almost totally out of commission/paralysed (coma 11days) but I was going to do it even if it killed me because my friends were coming in to visit me and I wanted them to think I was OK! Well, as I started to put my legs over the side of this bed that seemed 10ft high or at least looked like it. I was so weak and they didn't have the guard rails up yet because they didn't know the kind of person I was. Before I knew it, I got off balance and the next thing I remember, I hit the floor hard because I had no way of catching myself, no muscle. After the pain of the fall subsided, I tried and tried and tried to climb back up into that bed and could not do it for nothing, too weak. So after a few minutes of struggling I wore myself out and just passed out right there on the hard cold tile floor.


As you may know, when you’re in the emergency room all they give you is a little thin gown that is open in the back. Well, when I fell it came off and after struggling trying to get back into bed, I was out cold, lying there on the floor without a stitch of clothing on. My mother had just left for a little bit to run to McDonalds to get a sandwich for me cause I had not eaten in like 2 weeks(feeding tubes and all). The thing that happened was when she got back and walked through that door, seen me lying on the floor passed out but looking just like I had fallen out of bed, possibly hitting my head, knocked unconscious or even worse? No telling what she thought because I would never in a million years, introvert, just fall asleep on a hard, cold, tile floor by accident, especially with no cloths on, in the middle of the hospital with people everywhere! I forgot to tell you, she didn't want to leave me cause I had just come out of the coma and was kinda not all there, if you know what I mean. She made sure and told all the nurses, Make SURE you keep a watch on him cause she knew how I was. As you can imagine the surprise when she walked through that door after rushing back and seen me lying on the floor looking like a dead person. The bad thing for me was when they all heard this piercing scream echoing down the corridors of the hospital. All the nurses came rushing in to see why my mother was screaming.


Well, I was sound asleep and the next thing I knew all these nurses were frantically grabbing me trying to lift me up off the floor into the bed. But me, I was fighting for my life. All I could see was I was down to the bare essentials and all these women were attacking/grabbing me, for what reason I knew not, while I was trying to cover myself, fighting for my life at the same time. Using my one almost paralysed hand/arm trying to cover it but at the same time fighting for my life with my other arm that only worked about half way. Not an easy task under my conditions especially with 6 crazy nurses ambushing me, not knowing their true intentions. Finally after all the commotion, they got me in the bed. I was totally embarrassed to say the least, while the nurses were walking out giggling! Its fun to look back on it now but when I was 19, insecure/very introverted, it wasn't one of my better days!


I forgot to tell you about why I asked for you to please overlook my grammatical errors in this story. Well, I had a front lobal left side brain injury. I was told by a friend doctor of mine that the side/spot of the brain that was hit affects a persons English/grammar and memory, among other things. So they new that I might not have much of that left if any, even if I came out of my coma. After I woke up, I lost all my memory. I still knew who people were but couldn't remember any names of anything like cats or dogs, horses or cows. I knew what they were when they would show me a picture of one, just couldn't remember what you called them. Like the days of the week, months of the year, Christmas, fall, spring, everything.... And my memory, oh, couldn't remember anything after 5 or 10 minutes, so frustrating! If you know me, you know how it turned out but for those who don't, He healed me TOTALLY, went back to college, graduated with a BS and started a business "Praise the Lord"! The Lord reached down and touched me and gave me another chance, that's all I can say, a 1000% miracle, no ifs, ans, buts about it! I was in a wheel chair at first because I was paralysed, my right side, the doctors didn't even know if I'd ever be able to walk again, most accidents like mine they don't! The reason I'm trying to give my testimony is because He loves us SO MUCH and I Love Him and I love you and want you to see this was a 100% pure miracle, undeniable just like in the bible and still happening everyday. You can see the Lords POWER & LOVE, He IS REAL, not some fictional character or a god of mythology but THE 1 AND ONLY, GOD ALMIGHTY who is returning someday to take His children home! He wants to be your Father/Savior and give you a Home that will last forever! Don't miss out on what He has in-store for you thru-out this life and more then anything, don't miss Heaven, a place more than we could possibly fathom!




People have heard of the term born again but to many it is not understood. “You must be born again." What exactly does those words mean. Well, I will try and give you my understanding of them. Both believers and unbelievers still use Jesus' words "born again," and many, like Nicodemus, are still confused by them.

Correcting Nicodemus's misunderstanding, Jesus told him that people must be reborn spiritually to see or enter the Kingdom of God. “Jesus answered and said to him, ‘Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.' Nicodemus said to Him, can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born? Well, he knew that wasn't the right answer but he was just wanting Jesus to explain to him exactly what that meant. Well, I believe, the phrase figuratively means "born from above", becoming CHILDREN of God through our believing and trust in our Lord Jesus Christ. Without the Holy Spirit in one's life they are spiritually dead but when they receive the Holy Spirit into their lives through their faith in Jesus they become Born Again, like a rebirth. Only those who are Born Again can have their sins forgiven and have a relationship with God Almighty. But the good thing is, Every single one of us can be Born Again and have that relationship with Jesus Christ our Lord. This is why I am putting my testimony on here because I KNOW Jesus is real and I don't want you to miss Heaven and all the amazing things He already has planned for you all the rest of your days on this earth. There is no way in a million years I would be here right now typing this if it wasn't for my Saviours love and power, giving me another chance that I did not deserve. Your reading this right now only because of His mercy and grace.

We have ALL sinned and I know for me it seems like I don't deserve to have a relationship with Jesus who is HOLY without sin, PERFECT in every way. Because I know this fleshly body of mine is so far from perfect and holy. But I just want to encourage you, we all have a fleshly body that wants everything that is against the will of Jesus. After we take that step of faith and accept Him into our hearts, His Holy Spirit is so much stronger then our flesh body could ever be and with Him in control, He will deliver us from all those temptations, we just have to be willing to let Him take control!



A Story about one's Heart


Tears represent the heart, the spirit and the soul of a person. To put a lock and key on your emotions is to bury part of your Christ likeness! Especially when you come to Calvary!
 
You can't go to the Cross with just your head and not your heart. It doesn't work that way. Calvary is not a mental trip. It's not an intellectual exercise. It's not a divine calculation or a cold theological principle.
 
It's a Heart-Splitting hour of Emotion!
 
Don't walk away from it dry-eyed and unstirred. Don't just straighten your tie and clear your throat. Don't allow yourself to descend Calvary cool and collected.
 
Please . . . . Pause. Look again! That's Jesus our Savior on that cross!
 
Those are nails in His hands and feet. That's God Almighty's only begotten Son hanging on that old rugged cross. It's us who put Him there!
 
Think about that, we hung Him there to die the most torturous, shameful, horrible death Possible!



My Friend



My friend I stand in judgment now,
And feel that you're to blame somehow,
On earth I walked with you by day,
And never did you point the way.


You taught me many things, that's true,
I called you "friend", and trusted you,
But I learn now that it's too late,
And you could have kept me from this fate.



You knew the Lord in truth and glory,
But never did you tell the story,
My knowledge then was very dim,
You could have led me safe to Him.


We walked by day, and talked by night,
And yet you showed me not the light,
You let me live, and love, and die,
You knew I'd never live on high.



Though we lived together on earth,
You never told me about the second birth,
And now I stand this day condemned,
Because you failed to mention Him.


Yes, I called you "friend" in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife,
And yet, on coming to this dreadful end,
I cannot, now, call you, "my friend!"








I felt like He wanted me to have this question coming from Him:

'Why Father, All I have ever done on this earth was to try and help and love the ones we created, encourage them, heal them: the blind could see again, the crippled could walk, whatever their case was Father, I would do what ever it took, no matter. I also cast out demons in so many, even give life back to people who had died. I did everything possible that I could to show them how much I loved them but in the end not 1 person stayed by my side. Even my disciples has all abandoned me and left me alone hanging here on this cross. I am so thirsty Father and they give me vinegar to drink. They are laughing at me, condemning me, making fun of me, spitting on me, hurling insults at me like, if you are really the son of God, come down from that cross and show us, then we might believe you, all the while making fun of everything I had ever did. Father, if they only knew I could call 10,000 legends of the most powerful angels in all of Heaven, if they only knew who they were hurling those insults too, if they only knew, why Father, why?'

I am sure while hanging on that cross He had to ask those questions to His Father, “why Father, why are they doing this to me, beating me, flogging me, hammering thorns into my head, stripping my clothes off of me trying their best to shame me and humiliate me to the utmost. All I have ever did was try and help them, show them how much I loved them, why Father, why?” Even though He knew why and knew what He had to do, I’m sure that question had to be in His thoughts, He was a human being just like us and I’m so sure we would have those thoughts going through our mind.


And probably the most torturous time hanging on that cross that was hardest for Him to endure was at the end when after everyone else had abandoned Him. He was thinking, I still have my Father, my Father would never abandon me! Then He felt His Fathers loving arms that were around Him suddenly was gone, His presence was gone, the only one He had left who had not abandoned Him, had just left, left Him there to die alone, the most horrible/shameful/torturous death known to mankind. I cannot even begin to understand what could have been going through His mind, even His Father, GOD ALMIGHTY, left Him there to die alone. That is when He cried out with a heart shattering sadness, "My Father, My Father, Why have you Abandoned me!" His Father had to leave Him because He had to take on ALL the sins of the world by Himself because HE WAS THE SACRIFICE! Not the lambs like before but God Almighties only begotten son became our sacrifice, not for anything He had ever did wrong, but for OUR SINS that we had committed against Him. And while all this was going on, He was taking the entire worlds sin, back from the beginning of time till now every single sin, ALL on His human mind, body & soul. He had to take all of the filthiest, most shameful, horrible sins into His mind and body because He became sin for us and He was our sacrifice. This is why when He was in the garden right before He would be taken, He knew the torture that was before Him. He knew what His Father expected of Him, but in His heart I am so sure He didn’t know if He could endure all this and be the sacrifice that His Father had sent Him to be. That’s why the tears He was crying in the garden was blood tears, His heart was so torn, even to the point of bleeding tears! I cannot even imagine the horror He was going through, all for us!


If you are reading this right now think about what He did for you, that’s how much He Truly loves you! No other love could ever even begin to emulate His love and this love is here for you right now. If you feel His love surrounding you right now all you have to do is, with all your heart, accept His love and ask Him to be your Father and forgive you of your sins. It’s so simple but when you do it you have to believe with all of your heart that He will be your Father and forgive you of you sins! When I accepted Him, I was lying on the hospital bed, intensive care, just came out of my coma and my parents told me what had happened. I new if I would have died I would have went to hell for ALL of Eternity because I didn't know Him! He gave me another chance that I did not deserve or was not worthy to have, but He did it anyway because of His love! I would have gotten down on my hands and knees because of the respect I have for Him but couldn't because I was paralysed at the time, hadn't been out of the bed yet. After I accepted Him, I felt His presence enter me and His presence was SO AWESOME! I really can't remember if I started crying but a lot of times we do because we know of how much we have hurt Him all our life. When I accepted Him as my Father and asked Him to forgive me of my sins, it was something I had never felt, the presence of the Holy Spirit entering my soul and loving me with a love & peace so overwhelming! Everybody that walked into my room that day I just had to tell them, I couldn't be quiet, I was so at peace, even though I was paralyzed, possibly for life, it didn't matter, He was my Father now and nothing else mattered! Yet He is still giving you another chance to be His child and to forgive you of your sins and give you a home in Heaven Forever!!! If you accept Him as your Father and Believe, one thing He promises is, there will be a multitude of angels in Heaven rejoicing over you now being a part of His Kingdom. You will be one of His children that He will take care of completely while here on earth, and someday He will meet you at those Heavenly gates! You might hear the words, 'Well done my good and faithful servant, I have a home that I built just for you, over the hill beyond. Your brothers and sisters are waiting for you and can’t wait to see you!


The Lord has been talking to me about this lately


It’s been several weeks since it happened and I didn’t know how to share the story He put before me. I knew He let it happen for a reason but was so unsure how to talk about what had happened. Well, last night I told Him I would at least try and write something so I started looking for something to write on before I sat down on the floor at the place where I always read the bible and pray. I was looking for a book or something to put my paper on to write on and first thing I seen was a little door. I mean there were other doors all around and other little pads/booklets I could had used but I just so happened to want to open this door, so I opened it and there was a book behind some stuff just the right size for the paper I had. I picked it up and it said, “The Inspirational Writings of Chuck Swindall”. I had never seen this book before, not sure how it got there, but it was a big thick book perfect for what I was looking to write on. Then I thought, well maybe the Lord wanted to show me something in this book before I started writing because I knew Chuck Swindall was a God fearing Christian so I opened it and, WOW, unbelievable what the first couple pages had to say. Exactly where I was at, with this story! The way the Lord works is SO AMAZING!

Chuck was trying to get us to understand that the son of man didn’t come to be served but to serve and give His life as a ransom for many – Mark 10:45 He talked about, to be a true servant God has called us to be, we need to be Authentic, Real and Transparent in all we do. Those 3 words have always SO convicted me because I want to be what those words convey but fall short so often. I’m not sure about others, but for me, there are times I put on a mask and I am not always Authentic or Transparent or Real. I kept reading and this one line that I read really spoke to me and I hope it speaks to you: “A true servant stays in touch with the struggles others experience” so they are able to encourage and help when they see others struggling in this journey through life.

Well, this is what the Lord has so been putting on my heart the last couple of weeks since I received this phone call at work. It really hurt because I knew this person was in such despair but didn’t have anyone to talk to. The question this person (I’ll say he to make it easier) asked was, “will all gay people go to hell?” Well, I hesitated to answer, not knowing who this was or why he called me. I asked him if I knew him and he said no, he was from a state out west and I asked him how he got my number and he said, I was going down the highway the other day and seen your bill board and wrote down the phone number. He said, that is what all the Christians that I know believes. I said, why did you call me? He said after seeing your billboard I figured you were a Christian and I wanted to know what you thought. I kinda hesitated again, asking the Lord to give me the words to say. I forget the exact words I used but I told him I loved the Lord very much and wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for His compassion and His powerful touch of healing to give me another chance to live, when I was 19(in a coma for 11days after a ATV 4wheeler accident).

I tried to explain, some people are attracted to the opposite sex, some people are attracted to the same sex, some people are attracted to both sexes and some are not attracted to either. While growing up, these different drives that I mentioned above are usually formed around the ages of 9 - 12(from environment's that we are in, situations that we go through etc...) and most of us, at this age, weren’t even aware that this was happening. After the drive develops, this is an involuntary or spontaneous reaction that our bodies automatically produce when something sparks or triggers our hormones. The Question is: is it good, right, healthy or holy to act on everything that arouses us? Well, I believe in God’s eyes for some things the answer is yes and for other things the answer is no. I just want to encourage you and let you know, God knew back a thousand years ago, exactly where you would be right now, today. Exactly how many hairs are on your head down to the last 1 and exactly how many nerve cells your body has down to the last one trillionth and if He knows that, I am VERY sure He also knew right where you would be at with your sex drive, right now. God promises us this and is faithful, ‘He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can handle but will with that temptation provide a way out so that you are able to endure it'. 1 Corinthians 10:13 I’m saying this because He wants to be your Father SO much and He will love you and take care of you and help you on this journey through life that we all have to go through. Someday He wants to give you a home in Heaven forever where you will never have to deal with anything of these things again!

I didn’t quote the verse perfectly but said that Jesus is not willing that anyone should perish but that ALL make it to Heaven. 2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.(and be given a home in Heaven) That verse right there tells us that Jesus wants ALL OF US to make it to Heaven, no matter what our sex drive is or what we are dealing with in life. He wants every single one of us to believe in Him and ask Him to be our Father and to ask Him to forgive us of our sins and by doing that you are promised by God Almighty to have a home in Heaven! He wants you to come to Him just as you are like the lyrics say:

Just as I am, without one plea,
But that Thy blood was shed for me,
And that Thou bidst me come to Thee,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, though tossed about,
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings and fears within, without,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, and waiting not,
To rid my soul of one dark blot,
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, Thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because Thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.


He wants you just as you are, I told him, you don’t have to change 1 thing when accepting Him as your Father. He wants to so much be your Father and take care of you and love you with more love then you could ever imagine. He’s standing at your door and knocking but you have to let Him in. He sent His only begotten son to die on that old rugged cross for our sins, the most horrible shameful death possible, to try and show us how much He truly loves us. His son’s death was a ransom for OUR SINS but now we can have God Almighties Holy Spirit living in us. He will lead us and guide us and convict us when we sin in this journey through life, never ever leaving our side, that’s His promise!

If you take that step of faith and ask Him to be your Father and to forgive you of your sins and believe with your whole heart, you will have that relationship with Jesus Christ and He will be your Father and He will love you and guide you and convict you when you do something wrong. You will know if you are doing something against His will, He will definitely tell you by loving and convicting and disciplining you just like my parents did as I was growing up because they loved me and wanted me to have the best life possible! He will give you a home in Heaven and be your Father and take care of you, that is what He promises us and I believe that with all my heart!!! I told him, I hope this helps you to understand, it doesn’t matter what we are dealing with here on earth because each one of us has STRUGGLES, WEAKNESSES, THORNS IN THE FLESH, SINS, SEXUAL TEMPATATIONS THAT WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH, FOR A LOT OF US EVERYDAY. HIS PROMISE IS, HE WILL BE YOUR FATHER NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH AND WILL GIVE YOU A HOME IN HEAVEN FOREVER AND LOVE YOU WITH A LOVE THAT IS LITERALLY OUT OF THIS WORLD, IF YOU CHOOSE HIM!

He said thanks for talking with me, then he hung up. The Lord told me right after he hung up that He wanted me to put this with my testimony. I said, Lord, you know I cannot do that, no way, that is way too much to ask, I just can’t do it, then I put it out of my mind. Well, yesterday He did something, I can’t even begin to explain, totally blew my mind but He was telling me He let this phone call happen for a reason and that I was going to talk about it! Really, I mean REALLY put the fear in me, I knew I had to at least try and write something. Fear is the beginning of Wisdom(Prov. 9:10) and I fear my Father very much and I also love Him and try my best to do what He wants me to, which isn’t easy sometimes. Think about this, there is 100 billion stars in our 1 galaxy, the milky way but yet there are 100 – 200 billions galaxy’s all with 100 billion stars in each galaxy that He created in 1 day, go figure, that’s totally uncomprehendible for me, His POWER. But this is even more bizarre, someone with that kind of omniscient power, knowledge and wisdom, wants more than anything to be our loving Father and take care of us and love us while here on earth and after, give us a home in Heaven, more than our minds can possibly fathom!


REPENTANCE


A word that I may never be able to grasp the depth of but for some reason lately, the Lord has really been trying to show me how much deeper of a meaning this word really has! He has helped me to understand to some degree how boundless and perplexing in magnitude those letters have when they're all put together. For us, its a genuine, sincere regret that creates sorrow and moves us to admit wrong and desire to do/be better. After Jesus was nailed hands and feet to that old rugged cross and left hanging there totally unclothed on that cross to die, the definition of repentance acquired a whole new meaning. So much more profound and consuming then our minds can possibly imagine. Every last drop of His blood was counted by His Father being Charred and Seared into that word "REPENTANCE"!


I could just hear Him saying,

       "You wonder how long my love will last? You'll find your answer on a splintered cross on Galgotha's Hill. That's me you see up there, your maker/creator, your God, nail-stabbed hands and feet to that splintered cross hanging by those nails and bleeding. Covered in spit and vinegar and Sin-Soaked with every sin ever committed. That's your sin I'm feeling. That's your death I'm dying. That's your resurrection I'm living. If you could only realize, that's how much I Truly love you and want to give you a home in HEAVEN FOREVER! However, I give you the freedom to make your own choice!"


This is what He has been putting on my heart to emphasize. Just because you are a good person, live a good life, help others out, which is all good and what we want to try and do, THAT will not get you to Heaven. So many believe this and I have such a burden on my heart for them. I don't want anyone to miss Heaven but one verse that is so difficult for me to read is this one, Matthew 7:14, "Because strait is the gate and narrow is the way which leads to True Life(Heaven) but only a few will find it." Which means that so many are not going to make it to Heaven and there is only 2 places that we will spend eternity, Heaven or Hell! I want to encourage you though, you can accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour RIGHT NOW and your name will be written in the book of life and you will have a home in Heaven for all of eternity. He does not want ANYONE to be lost,(that includes YOU) but he wants ALL people to change their hearts and lives(repent) and make it to Heaven."(2 Peter 3:9)


Religion is a word that is going to keep so many from making it to Heaven also, even Jesus couldn't stand the word Religion. They thought because they were Religious and said the long prayers and tithed and went to church, they were going to make it to Heaven. It was all on the outside though, none of those religious leaders back in His time had any type of relationship with Him, it was just an act. It's TOTALLY AND ONLY about having that RELATIONSHIP with God Almighty and asking Him to be your Father! Its so simple, "Just as I am", that's the way He wants us, JUST AS WE ARE, WE DON'T HAVE TO CHANGE ONE THING TO HAVE HIM TO BE OUR FATHER! He will talk to you and love you and tell you what He wants down the road but that is after you take that step of faith and accept Him as your Father! And 1 last thing, even though we may try our best, we will never be perfect after we accept Him as our Father because that is an impossibility that no one can achieve! This is where His Grace and Mercy is so awesome. We are cleansed of every sin we will ever commit, from the past to the very last day we will have on this earth, that's what Jesus's death and shed BLOOD did for us on that cross! There was only 1 who has ever been perfect, His name is Jesus. When we do sin, He will forgive us when we ask Him, as the song says, He will forgive us as many times as there is drops in the Ocean!


One last thing that I would like to encourage you with. If you are His child and have accepted Him and believe, He will never leave you as long as you don't leave Him and stop believing. I'm talking to myself here just as much as I'm talking to you. This world has so many temptations and sometimes we fall really hard and make HUGE mistakes or sin horribly and afterwards we feel like He could never forgive us or love us again because it has happened time and time again. Well, I want to tell you that you CANNOT MESS UP TOO MUCH. There is nothing you could ever do that will stop Him from loving you with more love then you could ever imagine! I know we think in our human minds sometimes, 'is He still on our side, is He still for us or is He against us and turned His back on us because of the horrible thing we did'? Well, let me tell you, He promises He will never ever, ever, ever leave us or forsake us, NO MATTER WHAT WE HAVE DONE!!! We just need to get back up on our feet and try again and learn from our mistakes. We cannot not put ourselves in a place where we know we have a good chance of failing or in a place that we have no strength to overcome those temptations if they would arise. One last thing, if He convicts you after you have messed up which will cause you to feel really, really bad. Well, you gotta be thankful because He still loves you and is your Loving Father and wants the best for His children and without discipline, you can never get to where He is wanting to take you! We all remember when we were children how we wanted to do things so bad but our parents would say no and would discipline us if we did it. Well, it was because they loved us and new what was best for us and wanted us to grow up to be strong individuals. Well, our Father is a 1000 times more of that then our parents could had ever been. He wants THE BEST FOR US and knows the only way to get that is by loving us and discipling us. Just remember, when He's convicting/discipling you, He's doing that because He loves you!


I like how my pastor sometimes starts out his services, he says something like, "have I told you all lately that I love you because I do and I just want you all to know that!" Well, I would like to tell everyone who reads this the same thing because I do love you and want every single one of you who reads this to find Jesus Christ as your Saviour, your Father, who will love you and take care of you and never ever abandon you for the rest of your life! Heaven is what we have to look forward to, as Jesus says, more then our minds can possibly imagine!!! HEAVEN



       I want to thank you for reading this and someday I so hope to meet you, if not here Definitely in Heaven and I Really mean that!
In Jesus name, Amen!